I'll be

I get it now. I have set myself out in the open to be hurt and be able to grow from those wounds acquired. It all made sense now. That's why I never held back in unleashing my feelings for people that matter to me because I know, even with the baggage of uncertainty and vain trailing behind, I know that I won't lose anything. Instead, I'm scaffolding myself and strengthening my veins to get by time and life.

I, thank every person whom I've met and loved. Thank you for not returning the feelings for I knew better now. It's not about being lucky in love and getting the luxury of being held dear by people who gave you ideas of happiness; ITS about who risked the most and braved the unknown. Its about who gave out what they can without thinking about being paid in return. Its about who gave what they had to those who mattered without taking in regard the possibility of being left in vain throughout the efforts poured.

Its about who cried a ton yet grew stronger after. Its about being thrown in the seams yet keeping oneself intact and valued and not being reduced into a rubble. Its about giving without receiving and its about loving without any given condition.

I am proud that I have been rejected a lot of times, I have been held captive by words that meant nothing to the benefactor, I have cried a lot for wrong souls yet I know these experiences haven't made me less of a person, let alone reduced my worth and capacity in loving.

I will love until I couldn't, no matter what may become of me after. I will give whenever I could. I will brave the uncertain and the vain. I will bleed words of love for those who do not deserve it. I will live my life while I could and live it full of love  and without any bylaws.

I will waste tears for those who wouldn't appreciate me. I will set my heart out in the open to feel the entirety of feeling. I will feel pain, yes I would but hell I will be stronger after.